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Monday, December 5, 2011

Feel vs. Look

When it comes to health and body image, I personally feel like there are two very separate buckets that most people (especially women) typically fall under: those who care more about how they feel and those who care more about how they look. I don't necessarily believe that the two are mutually exclusive, but it seems to me that people usually tip more heavily into one direction if both are a consideration.

In recent years, especially after the discovery of my food allergies, I definteily fall into the "feel" bucket. Of course, if I feel great and my jeans won't zip up, that is a problem. The lucky part is, in my experience, the focus on the "feel" part of the scenario usually ends well for the "look" category. I will admit that in the weeks leading up to my cousin's (sister's) wedding I was eating salads with a much higher frequency than normal (I mean, my future kids are going to see judge me based on those pictures!) but I am most definitely not the type of girl who would sip lemonade spiked with cayenne pepper and maple syrup to fit into a dress that is likely a size too small to begin with. (Size is just a number anyway - does it really matter if you are wearing an 8 vs. a 6? Who is honestly going to know??)

The advantage of falling under the "feel" umbrella is that your propensity for self-love increases ten-fold. If you spend your life and your time focusing on the way you look in the mirror, your inner self will suffer. Not only will you be prone to insecurity, but you will also make insufficient nutritional choices for your body, or as I like to think of it as, the very thing that lets you live your life. In not giving it what it needs (and constantly bombarding it with negative thoughts) you are essentially turning against your life force. And if you ask me, you only live once - you aren't going to remember the guilt you felt after eating a piece of chocolate cake on your death bed. So why are you spending so much time worrying about it right now?

I am of course also not making the point that it is "vain" or "superficial" to care about how you look. Everyone cares about how they look. It's natural. Caring about how you look is a part of self-respect. But it's when you let your personal mantra slip to more of the "look" side of the body image scale that things start to get complicated. That's when things like eating disorders set in - after years and years of mentally pounding your body for not being perfect, your mind gains the propensity to convince itself that eating isn't important. Or that self-mutilation is. Nothing happens overnight - I am not suggesting that if you have a "fat day" you are suddenly flying off the handle into unhealthy territory. You aren't human if you don't have a day like that.

My simple wish for America (especially for young women) is that the focus on the body would shift from the outside to the inside. Instead of asking things like "what can I do to make my thighs less fat?" we should be praising our hearts for pumping blood, our muscles for allowing us to walk, run, play and live, and most importantly, checking in with ourselves emotionally and making sure that everything is ok there. And if it isn't? Exercise. Hot tea. Reading. Watching a favorite movie. Find the things that give you happiness and exploit the hell out of them when you need them. After all, that is why they are there.

I have grown to accept the fact that I will never look like a Victoria Secret angel. The Victoria Secret angels don't even look like Victoria Secret angels most of the time - some of the models don't even drink liquids 12 hours prior to the show (that includes things with no calories like tea and water, by the way). I'm sorry, but that is just a little too extreme for me.

As I like to say, a piece of cake might not make you skinny, but it will sure as hell make you happy. Living life in fear of the consequences that food will have on your body is no way to live. Food exists to be enjoyed and savored, yes, in moderation, but in some respect all things aside.

Give it up. Let it go. Shift your focus. Care about your health more than your weight. A lower number on the scale doesn't mean you will live longer. And guess what else? "Skinny" doesn't always equal "healthy". If you didn't already know this, muscle weighs more than fat. Maintain a state of being where you fall nicely in the balance of the "look" and "feel" approach. I think you will be happy where it lands you, both on the outside and the inside.

If you care more about the way you feel, you will eat better, think more positvely, excercise more responsibly (endorphins, yay!) and not encounter the kinds of health problems so many people suffer from due to self-neglect in one respect or another.

All that said, don't let that your new focus stop you from binge eating cookies every once in a while. Everything in life is about balance, and binge eating cookies is just sometimes a part of that balance.

♥mb.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Life is short...

...eat dessert first.

(Or just eat dessert. No one judgement here if your dinner consists more of sugar than the better parts of the food pyramid.)

♥mb.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Keep in mind...

I need to remind myself that there are different types of happiness, and I am simply pursuing my particular style of it. I'm not wrong, mine is just different. And it deserves respect too.

♥mb.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Pumpkin + bourbon + caramel = &hearts

Well friends, as of today, it is officially fall. My favorite season of the year. There is just something so magical about the transition from the hot summer sun to cooler autumn weather - it calms the soul and quells the busyness that always accompanies the hotter months. It's as if the weather is inviting us to take a deep breath in, trade our sandals for boots and cuddle up inside with a fuzzy blanket. It's wonderfully relaxing.

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Sadly, where I live, the change in the seasons will not be as significant. The fall equinox symbols the "warm season" turning to the "less warm season"as opposed to a complete shift in nature's backdrop. Having always lived in cooler places, my mind is busy thinking about things like scarves, bulky sweaters, and football games in 50 degree weather drinking spiked hot chocolate. If the weather won't cooperate, I will just have to make a little fall for myself.

The reemergence of pumpkin as the flavor of choice is one of the key occurrences symbolizing that autumn has officially made it's entrance. One of my favorite things about the holidays has always been my mom's pumpkin pie, which has a surprising secret ingredient - bourbon. All of the over 21 part evaporates during baking (no, my mom was not spoon feeding me spiked pie as a baby) and what you are left with is the perfect flavor to accompany the spiciness of pumpkin desserts.

This pie was the inspiration behind one of my grand cupcake plans: a pumpkin-bourbon cupcake with salted caramel icing. I wanted a cake that mimicked the nostalgic flavors so synonymous with the holidays for me, topped with a salty-sweet buttercream that would compliment the spiciness of the cake perfectly. And I am proud to say that I have achieved exactly that.

I converted a family applesauce cake recipe for the cake, and simply poured homemade caramel sauce into my favorite buttercream recipe to create the delicious topping. Of course, as with everything I create, this recipe is gluten and dairy free, but can be easily converted depending on your favorite ingredients.

Pumpkin-Bourbon Cupcakes with Salted Caramel Icing


Cake:


2.5 cups gfree flour blend (I use a mix of superfine brown rice flour, potato starch and tapioca flour)
2 cups of white sugar
1.5 tsp baking soda
1.5 tsp salt
1/4 tsp baking powder
1 tsp xanthan gum
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/4 tsp ground cloves
1/4 tsp ground ginger
1/4 tsp ground nutmeg

1 1/4 cups pumpkin
1/4 cup bourbon (I use Seagram's 7, just like mom!)
1/2 cup water
1/2 cup shortening
2 eggs

1. Heat oven to 350⁰. 
2. Whisk together all dry ingredients, set aside. 
3. Combine all wet ingredients in large mixer bowl, then add dry ingredients. Beat all ingredients on low speed for 30 seconds, then scrape the sides. 
4. Beat on high speed 3 minutes, then scrape down the sides.
5. Fill cupcake prepared cupcake tins 3/4 full with batter. (I find the easiest way to do this is with a large spring loaded ice cream scoop, like this one).
6. Set timer for 20 minutes, then check. Add time in 3 minute increments until cupcakes are slightly browned and a toothpick inserted comes out clean.


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Caramel Sauce:

I found this recipe for Vegan Caramel Sauce and made half:

1/2 cup butter or margarine (1 stick)
1/2 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup corn syrup
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 teaspoon baking soda


1. Melt the butter in a medium sauce pan over medium heat.
2. Once melted, add sugar, corn syrup, salt and vanilla - continually stir until mixture simmers.
3. Once it is simmering, add the baking soda and remove from heat, stirring vigorously.
4. Keep stirring until the mixture is smooth with no large bubbles.
5. Let cool for about 30 minutes.


Frosting:

I have been making this buttercream so long, that I don't measure - I make it based on taste, look and feel. What follows is my best guess. Although my advice? Use your favorite frosting recipe - just only mix together the butter/margarine, powdered sugar and enough milk to combine the mixture.

2 tbs butter or margarine
2.5 cups powdered sugar
splash of milk or non-dairy substitute
Half recipe of caramel sauce, cooled
Additional powdered sugar/milk

1. Combine first 3 ingredients until coarsely mixed.
2. Add in the cooled caramel sauce and mix until well combined & smooth.
3. Continue to add powdered sugar and small splashes of milk until desired texture is achieved. (Should be smooth but not drippy - easily tested on sneaky fingers!)


Frost cupcakes with an icing spatula or pastry bag affixed with a decorative tip. Admire your hard work and get ready for the compliments, from gluten and non-gluten eaters alike. It might seem like a lot of work, but I promise you, it will be worth it. 


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Happy Fall : )

♥mb.


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Healthy Tips for Busy Bees.

If you are anything like me, just eating anything at all can be difficult. Let alone eating healthy. I have had a couple of times where I have literally eaten ice cream for dinner because I a. didn’t have anything I could quickly throw together or re-heat, b. didn’t have any ingredients on hand to make anything or c. I simply didn’t have the energy to create anything more complete and nutritious. Such is the life of a busy 20-something, especially one with some pretty significant food allergies that make getting take-out more of a hassle than a convenience. Plus, who can afford regular take-out on an entry-level salary? Definitely not this girl. *sigh*

Now I am no expert on healthy eating, but I was raised under the supervision of a mother who majored in nutrition in college, and a father who calls fruit “nature’s candy”. There were always veggies on my plate at dinner and I remember being that weird kid who absolutely LOVED broccoli. I also have the disadvantage of having a sensitive tummy that doesn’t like things with gluten and dairy in them – aka, just about everything that is processed/easy to fix. One thing I love about veggies and fruit is that there isn’t a label to read – I know automatically that they are free of the things that make my stomach angry. Some of you may think that this makes eating healthy “so easy!” but let me be the first to tell you, there are plenty of “bad for you” things out there that don’t contain gluten or dairy. And trust me when I say that I have found nearly all of them. Sugar, for example, does not include either of those ingredients, and can be just as detrimental to your health if consumed as often as most people consume fried foods and whipped cream.
But like they say, you live & learn. In these past 8 months that I have spent transitioning from semi-employed & having too much time on my hands to working 40 hours a week with the exact opposite problem, I have accumulated some knowledge on how to eat healthy (or at a minimum get 3 servings of fruit/veggies a day) on a time crunch.

1. Stay hydrated.
If there is one thing that will not help you if you are maintaining a busy schedule, it’s being dehydrated. I started obsessively drinking water when I was in high school, so I am one of the lucky few who developed that skill at a young enough age that it stuck with me, but the vast majority of people are walking around with draught-ridden cells. When you wake up, drink at least 8 ounces of water (or, as I like to do, coconut water) especially if you drink coffee as part of your morning routine. Everyone wakes up dehydrated, most people just don't do enough to fix it. Invest in a recyclable aluminum water bottle  (such as Sigg) or a BPA-free plastic bottle (such as CamelBak). Or even better, invest in a couple – one for work, one for home. Commit to drinking a bottle full before lunch, and a bottle after. Then additional water in the morning when you wake up and if you work out. You will be amazed at how much healthier you will feel just by resolving to get enough fluids.

2. Eat a veggie or fruit with every meal.
Eating fresh vegetables and fruit is one of the first things that can slip away with a busy lifestyle. The easiest way to make sure you are still getting enough of these natural goodies is to eat one with every meal of the day. Two things that help me with this are a standard list of fresh veggies/fruits I buy every time I go to the grocery store and Ziplock baggies. I also find that pre-slicing fruit such as strawberries and cantaloupes make it easier to eat them on the go or toss them in a salad. Baby carrots are easy to throw into a Ziplock bag and eat later at work. Dried fruit such as Craisins also work (although these do have added sugar, so just be mindful!) Also, don’t let the lazy connotation that comes with convenience foods scare you away from them. I took a lot of crap when I told people that I bought pre-sliced apples but a. I HATE cutting apples and B. if it’s going to encourage that I eat more apples, why not? I buy pre-sliced apples and pre-shredded carrots. I make my own salads but if you know you won’t, buy pre-packaged mixes. It’s better than nothing!
MY LIST: baby carrots, salad ingredients (green leaf lettuce, red cabbage, green onions & shredded carrots), spinach, strawberries, cantaloupe, pre-sliced red apples and bananas, along with the occasional cucumber, zucchini and tomato.
Trust me when I say that this task is less daunting than it seems – just requires a little planning. As soon as you get used to it, you will feel like your meal isn’t complete without a big bowl of salad or a banana while you check your inbox first thing in the morning.

3. Your fridge & freezer are your best friend.
Make things in bulk when you have time and store them for when you don’t. You can even freeze things like fresh chicken or ground beef, as well as pasta sauce, soups and muffins/cake.  Just make sure to label things you freeze – things have a tendency to get lost in the vast expanses of that frozen tundra, and the last thing you want to eat is year old beef that expired months ago.
 If you plan to eat something over the course of the next few days, invest in some Tupperware and keep it in the fridge. A few minutes in the microwave and you’ve got yourself a meal. I also try to make green salads in bulk and keep them in the fridge so that all that’s standing in the way of me and a big bowl of salad is a pair of tongs and clean utensils.
In a perfect world, I would come home and cook every night, but I have learned in reality, that just doesn’t happen. Use the tools you have to ensure you get good meals to maintain your energy throughout your busy week.

4. Snacks are important.
This is something I have learned being gluten-free. I always have some kind of bar or trail mix stashed in my purse and I literally have a snack drawer at work for days when I don’t get lunch or my appetite is just harder to satiate than normal. We all know that nothing is worse than a busy day that is so busy in fact, you don’t have 20 minutes to run out and grab a quick bite. Solution? Snacks. Also, another universally known fact is that we human folk get grumpy when hungry. The blood sugar gets low, and so does the tolerance level for just about anything that isn’t kittens and/or someone giving you a gift. This is probably the most easily avoided circumstance in the adult world, but our diet obsessed culture has led us to believe that things like “snacks” and “eating after 7 PM” lead to weight gain and subsequently an unhappy life. In reality, it works backwards – if you are TOO hungry and under nourishing yourself, your body will go into starvation mode, and instead of letting the fat go, it will hold on to it like Rose held onto Jack at the end of Titanic. As long as you are snacking healthfully and when you actually feel hungry, it’s quite beneficial. If you avoid getting over-hungry you will be able to avoid over-eating and you will keep your metabolism functioning at a normal rate.
Some of my favorite snacks: baby carrots with hummus, a mix of Craisins, almonds and if I’m feeling fancy dark chocolate chips, protein bars made with natural sugar (either agave or rice syrup), fruit leathers, un-buttered popcorn and the not-so-healthy rice krispy square. I also have a special spot in my heart for Trader Joe’s cinnamon almonds, made with sugar, but taste like a snickerdoodle. (For those of you not doing the math at home, the almonds are healthier than the cookie.) I also find myself snacking on cereal and milk (almond or coconut) before hitting the sack.

So in essence: snack up.


5.  Remember that you aren’t perfect.
You aren’t Giada DiLaurentis. You don’t get paid to stare out at the ocean from your Malibu mansion and make delicious, healthy food.  Some days, you barely have the time and mental capacity to even remember what celery looks like. We all have those weeks where our personal food triangle (or whatever shape it has morphed into these days) consists overwhelmingly of takeout and fast food, and we all have those days where we missed lunch and are so ravenous that upon getting home we eat an entire bag of salt & pepper potato chips in one sitting (not that I am speaking at all from personal experience…)
Just because you have eaten poorly for a couple days (or a couple weeks) doesn’t mean you should give yourself permission to give up entirely. If you’re anything like me, after a long session of terrible eating, you could spend an entire day just eating cucumbers and dry cereal. Don’t launch into some crazy cleanse or punish yourself by working out harder than you are physically capable of – just stop, think, put things in perspective and realize that your body isn’t ruined because you filled it with junk for a little while. Pick up an apple, slather on some almond butter, and move on.


Being busy is not an excuse to malnourish yourself. But, as with anything in life, it's all about balance. If you are getting what you need to keep the inner you happy & healthy, give it a little chocolate. It would be unfair to deprive of it of such a wonderful indulgence...

♥mb.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Re-defining "Fitness".

I used to be somewhat of a "workoutaholic". I felt guilty if I didn't go to the gym, it was my go-to when I was upset or frustrated and it was absolutely UNHEARD of for me to go more than 3 days without donning an old tshirt and sweating a little.

Needless to say, since college, things have dramatically changed. For some reason, getting to the gym is more difficult and requires much more mental and physical effort than it used to. I think it's just because I've been out of the routine for so long, and as we all know, getting back into it is the most difficult part. I also, of course, stem from the mindset that unless you run multiple miles or burn 450 calories (via the cardio machines I'm sure always accurate records) that a workout isn't really worth it. This comes from 15 years of playing soccer, frequenting two-a-days during my last years of high school, and the fact that I used to run 3-miles 3 times a week like it was no big thing.

Since my body isn't used to the rigorous exercise (yet) and because I have a lot less free time than I ever did in high school and college, I am taking on a new attitude towards fitness and getting back in shape.

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No matter how short, a workout is still a workout. Got 10 minutes? Run a mile. Got 20? Run a mile, do some free weights and a couple sets of crunches. On the nights I can make it to an hour long yoga class, it will just be icing on the cake (which I will feel a lot better about eating once I start rewarding my body with regular workouts again.)

In time, the strength and the fitness will come back, and running or yoga or whatever phsyical activity it happens to be will seem less daunting. I will start to crave it again and love it with all my heart like I used to. I will re-learn how to love the burning in my muscles and the exhaustion after pushing myself to my physical limit.

It all happens in time, but that doesn't mean it can't happen 10 minutes at a time. SWEAT.

♥mb.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Happiness is...

...chamomile tea and pumpkin-bourbon cake with salted caramel icing.

Don't worry folks, recipe post coming soon : )

♥mb.